***Do you know what vibe guys get from you?***
IMPULSIVE DARLING
You're always the life of the party! Once they get to know you, guys love your fearlessness. But some of them (especially the shy kind) may be a little overwhelmed by all that outgoing energy right off the bat. Once in a while, a simple "What's up?" is your best opening line.
Do you know what vibe guys get from you?

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the funniest thing happened.I'm somehow unfazed by my own emotions.Maybe i'm dead inside. I would like to feel something for whatever is happening,i just cant though.Yesterday was probably the most daft day of my whole week,forget recaps.I must have tried to kill myself unconsiously.Dont get me wrong i'm not suicidal,it's just that exhaustion has got the best of me.I almost tripped myself to death a few occasions while making my way home.


Heard i got into the NTL team,skipped training for the baby thingy.I hate family gatherings.Kills my mood.I refuse to submit myself to family naggings about how i should do things a certain way and i am most definately not going to cave in.Cheers to a great weekend...

Chaos rules my mind!



Great week yet full of chaos and panic attacks. Everything else seems very disorganized.I look dysfunctional.The only thing that keeps me sane is the fact that i could still sleep on any terms.Be it in the library or in a small cramp confinement of the train seat.I'm becoming more passionate about playing touch.I have since given up on the fact that i have to find love to make my life complete.That has been proven and yet it would be nice if it was otherwise.The whole future thing has been bugging me even in my sleep..I have to bloody clear my papers and projects! I want to GRADUATE!



I miss hanging around the one person that i use to hangout with all the time. My dearest Rab, a big shoutout to her:HAPPY 22nd Birthday girlfriend.I have to stop being busy and start spending more time with her. I miss all out lunching and retail theraphy sessions.It's hard when the person u treasure most start to fade because u're just to busy to let her into life...

Pictures says a thousand words...





a new addition to the family..


me,supi and aini at Shine Touch Carnival


Supi getg Soaked


me and steph after touch clinic


Camwhore Partners in Action

Confusion sets in yesterday.Couldnt come to terms what my emotions were when we said our goodbyes.U love me,you love me not.After a long time of avoiding all the drama it happened again. A neverending cycle of roller coaster emotions.Why does it always happen when we meet?I thought we could be friends,i thought i got over you but why do u always make me feel the way i feel?I was fine after the last time now i feel i need you more.I hate my guts for being jealous that u're dating someone..I hate what pple say, like i couldn't be more desperate when i'm trying hard to be happy for you.I hate playing mind games with you.I hate having to know that no matter what i would catch u when u fall.Stop giving me hugs when you know that only makes things worst.Dont do the things that u do in front of friends because I hate the way it makes me feel when they smile at me.What saddens me is not being to enjoy the simple pleasures in life with you,because you that we could never be just friends not now not ever.

Pysche Up!



Monday was fine.Just the usuals.School followed by training.Today was ok as well.Clocked in quite a bit of sleep considering it's skipping-lectures day.PST ended early due to the quiz.i had mixed reaction from a bunch a guys from wearing my "I love MED students" tee.It's ironic how pple will spit opinions from something dats emblazoned on ur chest.Nontheless,i had a good day and tomorrow would be better.Touch Clinic at TurfCity with the NZ Acad.Yay!



Back to something less normal...I couldnt stop hearing or reading about the number of pple who having love crisis.Me being a hopeless romantic(i jump at every opportunity of having relationship),have been trying to avoid the whole territory concerning Love or attraction to the opposite sex.Alas,i have been thinking about it.But not enough to persuade me to go into it though.Shit happens!

Forza Azzurris.


I'm so elated Italy won.Although the bloody commentor made Francesco Totti invisible, I was quite proud of the Azzurris.Has been a while since they won something prestigious against France since their last finals at Euro when France won. The irony is in six weeks the Italian stallions are going to be up against France in their bid for the Euro 2008 campaign.Names to watch out for would be Grosso and Materrazzi although i heard the latest scandal was Cristiano Ronaldo wanting out of Man utd following the infamous Rooney send-off,the english hooligans are gonna have a field day with him!Advice to him:Good luck buddy you're gonna need it cos no one's gonna pay for ur ticket out of fergie's den,not even Real Madrid.



Freezing is an understatement.I'm in IA and the weather has been icy cold since the Finals this morning,thunder and lightning.Still i plough my way to school knowing i'll be the only walking zombie in class since my partner is down with fever.Get well soon Fai!And so i end with a high note,looking forward to training later.I'm quite amazed i could write a soccer review never occured i had in me.Or maybe it's just the Italian charm.Forza Italia!Good Bye World cup 2006,hello EPL and La Liga.

Tired.Beat out.Still in high spirits to watch the Finals.Cheers to Italy!A deserving jubilation before the party begins.New Boots are good enough.Research and programming sucks.I'm definately in need of TLC.Anyone?

Hurray it's a new day.Mummy promise me new boots today.A perk me up today:I change the blogSkin!Somehow that's a good feeling of accomplishment.Tata!

U are what u make urself to be.

I have this funny feeling in my head and it has been bugging since i could remember.No updates.Same old same old.I thought with more involvement i would be able to feel a sense of fulfilment.I guess wrong.The same playlist have been playing on my lappie and it seems rather cloudy today.I cant believe i actually spend the whole day today doing god-knows-what.

Nothing to look forward to this weekend other than family outings and more family outings.It's a wonder why I'm the only "young adult" in the family out with the Oldies all the time.They ask the same question all the time,"adik,u no life ah?How come always hanging around with ur mum?" I have gotten numb and therefore have no interest when the same question pop up...simple and easy..silence is Gold!

Comfort zone aside i have distance myself from the guys for quite awhile.No apparent reason why i should make the effort when all i'm good for are "nurul,i need a favour ah...".Sometimes i choose to deny that very fact but it's inescapable.

Looking forward to occupy myself in as many touch events as possible.The only way to keep me sane.Stop thinking that I'm a lone bugger..Guess all i want now are material comforts.Love is secondary and so is company....

Words are sometimes so twisted pple are often fooled by it.Long haitus from blogging have brought me back here and the urge to fill my life with words-not the twisted kind. My past week has been bitter-sweet...From the financial woes, lack of motivation,mindful issues and trying to pick myself up from being a sadis...

Friday was a feel good day for me,missing trainings on thursday i had to make up for lost time.But makes me happy was spending quality time with pple i treasure...snippets from my food binge with the girls before light training at padang:

me and fizah

dee and fai

fizah and dee

dee

Fizah's birthday Card By Us

Birthday Girl baring gifts

food we had after Ben and Jerry's ice cream

Saturday was a mono day for me...nothing special just the usual chores and watching soccer with my brother..was glad we did that.I'm so thankful for world cup it does bring pple together..ALthough i did predict that Brazil would get knock out before finals...too bad!

Sunday was Lion Red's touch carnival..great day and i'm proud of the girls..After a long day sweating under the scorching sun at Bukit P. field, showered at my cousin's and headed to Al-ameen for dinner with Steph and Marli..legally blond followed through den i was floating in Lala land...zzzzzz

Monday,what seemingly looked like a happy day turns out to be a wreck.Other than the fact that everyone who when to LR was exhausted,somehow it has become a routine to make coach angry.I dont even know what is gg thru the girls' mind...one person can't possibly make a change and i've sworn to not be responsive until pple have woken up from dreamland..watch grey's anatomy and what meredith said before the closing scene hits me..."truth and honestly over the thruth, Truth Hurts,so pple lie"....