i think i take happiness for granted. I used to have so much of it,brimming full and yet it was never enough. I owe it to myself for not being contented with what i have. But i had to learn it the hard way. Now that i'm older and leading life just so i could move on, i realize i'm tad bit contented with everything. Even the little most possible joy could make feel like i won a million bucks..Like yesterday, a guy was smilling at me while i bought milk at Esso(i was in my pyjama bottoms and tee shirt) and my heart skipped a beat. That really made my day. Even things like my mum asking me out would cheer me up any day. I suppose i have really evolve into someone who wouldnt let anything dampened her.But at some point i really do feel i'm living under a scrunity of someone's microscope.But moving on, i'm really looking forward to term test. Yay! It might sound lame but i'm enjoying the very fact that i enjoy studying.DArn should have been more optimistic when i was in second semester. It's raining again,that's two weekends mind you.

I 'm still bloody pissed at the EX. a message to him: Stop bloody raining on my parade! You're not allowed sympathy from me. And stop blaming others for the very fact that u're a failure. Dont even think that the world evolves around u because it doesn't.I wish people would do something about their issues or just move on. Apparently people dont that's why we're humans. i have never regretted anything but it seems like if i don't people might think otherwise...I give up,go figure. Good weekend and cheers!

Sunday morning!

I'm having such a great weekend.Things are back to normal with me any mummy dearest.Somehow no matter how much we fight and hate each other i still love her and her crazy antics. Great movies are released over the week and i'm hating myself for not trying hard enough to go see any.I guess i'm just waiting for an invite. Had a weird friendster mail from mr"A" yesterday.It's so funny how he decided to mail me instead of SMSing.Surprisingly i'm happy to get that mail from him.At first i was being cynical but i realise i missed going out with him,like just the two of us.Ok enough about that.

My spirits are dampened due to the rain cos i'm suppose to go down town with mummy but she just took some muscle relax pills and is prolly travelling through parallel dimensions as we speak.Hope to go out somewhere today, i really wanna go KINOKUNIYA to get a book. Plus, i need to spend the voucher my bro's fiancee gave me.

*starts singing....
Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you

Updates

Sunday was nothing but a blur really couldn't wait for monday to come...was looking forward to school and seeing my friends..looking forward to training....

monday was great though a bit tiring, training was exhilarating...great turnout 50 girls,not bad. Home, ate dinner, watch the final episode of Dia..got interrupted by ang moh. When online around 12 plus to do some java well nothing gt fully done..slept at 1 plus - long sleep class was at 11am the next day...

Tuesday was a bit relaxed although the exhaustion from monday started to kick in. All i did was moped all day and tried to survive till 7pm.Skipped two lectures,now i have to catch up for quiz. Ramen session with Dee den Fairuz and Carole join.Lecture.Class till 7pm.Plaza Singapura,LJS dinner with Hafiz,cuzzie,is and Bubu.Home.SHOWER.laundry(i have no idea why,thanks mum!).Stayed up till 3 plus am to do presentation slides.

Wednesday early day class at 8 am. Woke up at 6am. Done and relieve of the presentation for assignment.Slagged at the library with fairuz.Lecture by KumBar(yes or no ah?).Lunch at designer pad...spicy lunch.Got shooed out of mobcomp lab(no free access yet).Panic attack for misplacing my Razr V3 in the toilet,phew!Lucky me.Library books.Bitching session.TM with fairuz,btw she bought a really nice bag at BUM.Home.


KumBar the Man in Lecture


Fai trying to Focus


Me Monkeying around

Me+Steph+BBQ chicken rice=MonKeys
ME and SuPi@ SMU ToucH
Steph and me After dinner@Marina Loft

WeeKend Satisfaction
I had a super fun time at turf city-SMU presents Rolling Good Times TOuch. It's been such a while since we had a touch carnival.Was so glad most of the peps in the touch community there.I had a super great time with the girls and fooling around like nobody's business.MAde fun and fool around with Coachie(she named her mix-team NIftyterrfic) and her other team(maiNatsPayne-my nuts Pain,get it?!).It was so hilarious i tell u..

And to make up my day I had Dinner with Mr "A", Asrul aka SAMOA and fARhan and nt to mention Stephie. Was so damn happy to see him, he look so cute la, i could just eat him. I admit that i might sound abit repulsive but it's a fact! I was just like staring him straight in the eyes like the whole time.But den again me being me, it will always be one of those superficial thing.

We decided to hang out at the steps facing esplanade and steph had her Hot Fudge Sundae...the whole time she kept count of how many "Siak" i ended my sentence with. And if i could'nt hold it, I was told to do jumping jacks which of course i never gt to doing.At 1010 we headed home. Was very glad to see my cousin,I miss her so much man. To ADEK Happy Belated 17th Birthday hor!Ah...home sweet home...

Me and Adam
Azlina Senior and Me
heh.ADam and Stephie
Cheese!
Steph + ME = RASCALS

-----MArli's Party at ATTICA 29 April 2006----

A fun filled and crazy nite except we could never really get shots of the birthday girl herself...Cheers!

All worn out

The school week has been wearing me down. I get tired as soon as i set my foot home. This week has been a bit more tiring than the last, especially with all the tutorials and lectures going on. I have yet to find myself adapting to my timetable. Waking up super early to rush for 8am classes are not fun because there's nothing you would look forward to at the end of the day. Tuesday started out just fine, when for CDS till 7. Had dinner with stephie and lifeguard. Lifeguard totally didn't live up to what he was over the phone. Thank god steph was there. But as i suspected, he wouldnt want to have anything to do with me anymore after that. The phonecalls and text messages have faded. And so did my interest.

Wednesday to Friday was abit vague because i just wanted the week to end as quickly as it has started. Thursday's touch clicnic for the freshies were fun. The freshies seems to be having fun. I'm still anitcipating when the number starts showing.Lifeguard decided to finally talk to me on Thursday although i felt really great to have Hamzah call the night before. For a while, i thought i couldnt have anyone to talk to on the same wavelength. Lifeguard is getting on my nerves. Just get off my back will u? Looking forward to meeting Hafiz for the weekend, i guess my week would not be complete if it's without him. Always the crazy bunch who'll make me laugh. I miss hanging out with the guys. I really hope tomorrow will make me look forward to the week ahead.

I realise that at times my selfishness doesn't get me anwhere.I realise that most of the time it gets the best of me. Why do i sleep thinking tomorrow needs a better agenda, why cant be optimistic?

My day officially started with me cleaning up the house and heading out to teach tuition there after. Accompanied my mum and my aunts to see a relative at the hospital.Shopped at jurong point and a scrumptious dinner followed by a trip to see my nephew.Just when i thought everything was gg waywards,i still have to go out with mummy tomorrow again...

Was really glad to see my darling nephew just now..he grew abit since the last i saw him.Apart from the full tummy i really had a great time with all my aunts and my cousins.Cant wait till tomorrow..too bad my intial plans got cancelled was really looking forward to spend sometime with someone..but no rush we still have other days to make up for that..i'm going to doze off any minute now..just recalling what happen at attica...total chaos and was really funny to see birthday girl bouncing around after getting high,she actually knock me over a few times and even have the courtesy to apologise..cute la she..hehe..Thanks to steph for being there..really had fun...