All worn out

The school week has been wearing me down. I get tired as soon as i set my foot home. This week has been a bit more tiring than the last, especially with all the tutorials and lectures going on. I have yet to find myself adapting to my timetable. Waking up super early to rush for 8am classes are not fun because there's nothing you would look forward to at the end of the day. Tuesday started out just fine, when for CDS till 7. Had dinner with stephie and lifeguard. Lifeguard totally didn't live up to what he was over the phone. Thank god steph was there. But as i suspected, he wouldnt want to have anything to do with me anymore after that. The phonecalls and text messages have faded. And so did my interest.

Wednesday to Friday was abit vague because i just wanted the week to end as quickly as it has started. Thursday's touch clicnic for the freshies were fun. The freshies seems to be having fun. I'm still anitcipating when the number starts showing.Lifeguard decided to finally talk to me on Thursday although i felt really great to have Hamzah call the night before. For a while, i thought i couldnt have anyone to talk to on the same wavelength. Lifeguard is getting on my nerves. Just get off my back will u? Looking forward to meeting Hafiz for the weekend, i guess my week would not be complete if it's without him. Always the crazy bunch who'll make me laugh. I miss hanging out with the guys. I really hope tomorrow will make me look forward to the week ahead.

I realise that at times my selfishness doesn't get me anwhere.I realise that most of the time it gets the best of me. Why do i sleep thinking tomorrow needs a better agenda, why cant be optimistic?