the good and the bad

and so it seems. Life has its fair share of balance, yin & yang or karma, however you wish to put it. Since the last, I have been trying to find that balance in order to stay focus day in, day out. Some may say that it must have been a miracle for things to turn out the way they are but others might just say it's pure luck or maybe sheer determination.

Now that the clouds have cleared it seems that every scarifice and standing in the rain have paid off. Having made into the Prestigous IP team, I count myself blessed. It being the first and the last before i graduate, it's bittersweet symphony for me.But the best is yet to come,more hardwork and determination is needed to be put on the Pedalstal.

And so it was, the day I saw loverboy. All the knots in my stomach seems to be kneading it's way up through my whole system. I was acting like school girl again(geez I hated that), but it seems to be the same old same old for us. Except he was less himself. He grew his hair out and his gottie looks so cute it almost seem manly on him. But nothing was worth rejoicing because we're still the same but now we just seem to drift further apart, more than we use to.

...when it gets bad i just pray and hope for the best, knowing that I have been very blessed gets me through even the hardest thresholds..

the raye madness!