i wish it never had to come to this.I'm so bummed out over everything.It's quite a pain trying to keep a positive outlook over everything against all odds.For well over 4 months i have tried to avoid the shindics of having any intentions of having a relationship.Unlike pple around me,i'm one of the unlucky bastards that can never attract a guy with just her mere physicalilty what more personality.As painful as i find it ,i just cant pretend to be happy.It is sucking the life out of me!

I had mix reviews about my nite out last nite.Some parts were fun and some parts just wished i was at home sleeping.It was a nite out at MOS with steph, marli,asrul and steph's friend(i sweared he was outcasted by us!).Nonetheless,amongst all the pushing at shoving at smoove, i was up to my usual partying antics.I spend almost the whole nite dancing by myself,checking out guys,teasing marli with her all-time fav dance move.Me and steph had a ball,asrul was dancing but at times only.Weird ppl danced with me.it's just one of those off-nites for me.Not quite enjoyable really.But if anything made the nite,it was bumping into Zaidi my bro's mate.He look so cool with his newly shaven cut.I sweared if i had it my way we'd bumping and grinding.Hehe.Nite ended soon after.After much sleep,i'm on the lappie writing an entry..cheers to a good day!